The concept

[ssurgul]

The first couple of times you said you wanted things written, I did it, for you, in an effort to get my points across. But, nothing changed. Nothing improved. None of your words, written or spoken, were followed through on. That's why I tried to shuck that off, and go back to words, and tried to cut down the conversation following to just the salient points. Writing wasn't working. Lengthy explanations weren't working.

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[ssurgul.livejournal.com]

I can't actually say. Every time a track that I proposed was started, it was only followed for a few days before some event would completely undo everything, even in the face of beginning results. Since they weren't followed for more than that, their effectiveness is minimized if it exists at all.

Hm.

I hope you take this the right way. Honestly, I think you may well have some form of autism, Kyle. Talk to Rayn. She has detailed a lot of the same behavior patterns that you exhibited as well. Asperger's, as noted in your other entry, is difficult to diagnose as the symptoms are fairly vague. The symptoms can be the result of many different things, but it is a possibility to be seriously considered. Get the logs of her conversations with me, if you can. I can only suggest those because I know what the content was, and I can authorize reading my words to her without fear of overstepping my bounds. But, at least review them for content. Don't review them for 'Well, on line 56, right there, you said XZY, when you should have said XYZ! Therefore, you must have no fucking clue what you're talking about!' It will be the natural reaction; it's what we've both observed in you before. Read them and think about your behaviors. Think about the statements I made at the beginning regarding 'needing to form a plan that is too detailed, such that if any single incident fails, the entire thing has to be scrapped', which then leads to more and more depression.